Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Hope cookies, homemade nutella, and a Holiday....

Sorry, I've neglected my own blog. I honestly thought about it, I just didn't know what to say. I feel like I've said it all, that there really is no hot-off-the presses update. I'm just soldiering on, but with some fortification from much needed meds (Lexapro), a therapist, and goodies from you (I'm amazed at your thoughtfulness; from hope cookies, to homemade healthy treats, to taking ALL my kids on a WALKING tour to Franco's and Rita's, to a work collection to send us on a mini get-away!).

I had chemo tx #3 last Wednesday (4/16/14), yes it took all day again, yes I felt crappy after but at least I felt crappy "down the shore" and was able to just sleep it off with my family around me (and raid Easter baskets for chocolate). I did get a couple of good days to take in the ocean, which to me is restorative and calming.  When I met with Dr. Fellin, we discussed my treatment regimen and decided that, although I seem to be responding very well to the chemo,  we will continue with the full 6 treatments with taxotere (so 6/17/14 should be the last for a while, I'll still have the antibody chemo infusions every 3 weeks forever but they are targeted so do not have the same yucky effects) ... I'd rather be overly aggressive then stop early because of the few side effects (namely the hair loss and fatigue). Speaking of hair loss, Dr. Fellin was amazed at how much hair I still have left (to me I feel like that it's not much), but it's not lasting. I'm thinking probably by next week I'll be sporting my new hairdo (aka wig).

Otherwise I feel good. No pain, just very tired and my stomach is not right most of the time- but this doesn't bother me. The Lexapro has really helped, I'll get an anxious thought but then I just acknowledge it and it fades away, no drama, no tears. I also had my first visit with a therapist who was very helpful, I like her. She gives me new ways to think about things and reminds me of my own motto/ strength: to live for/ in today. It was funny though when we were ending the session, she said yes, you need to continue with therapy- you think? Ha, I guess I have a lot on my plate.

Thank you for your continued support, love, and prayers,


PS: I thought I'd share with you what is on my office wall at work (and I did this prior to ever being diagnosed!)