Friday, January 2, 2015

Why not exercise ?

For my tx update - I saw Dr. Fellin Christmas Eve, had my IV tx with Hercepton and Zometa and still working on titrating up the chemo meds (tykerb and Xeloda). Dealing with diarrhea but otherwise feeling good. Still no hair :( I've come to the conclusion that I just need to push myself harder then I ever had. My body seems to just want to lay around on my heating pad, take 2 hour naps, and watch Access Hollywood but then my mind goes crazy with inactivity (and celebrity gossip). I was tired all the time and feeling apathetic.  I met with my therapist on Tuesday, and she suggested adding Wellbutrin ( anti- depressant) to my Lexapro ..... Now while I'm all for feel-good chemical help, somehow this motivated me to just get moving. Despite the frigid weather, I dragged my butt out to get some fresh air and exercise and it's working. I'm starting to feel better already. There is something about exercising that my body responds to (just wished the weather was warmer). I think I allowed myself to "couch potato" because I was feeling sorry for myself, not so much for my diagnosis as I have came to terms with that, but for a never- ending cycle of doctor visits, tests and treatments. I was living in the moment but not really enjoying it much. So with some fresh air and a celebration of a New Year, I'm ready to tackle 2015 with all I got. 

"Let yourself be silently drawn by the strange pull of what you really love. It will not lead you astray." Rumi